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ahhh my head is so on the side of killing me right now... ick i need to get this checked out soon...
but anyway today was a pretty ok day, i got my eyebrows down... and im all prettyful lol.. don't mind my weird tlk....
i've been working out for the past week now.. and i think its paying off.. but idk, time will deff tell,.. and i might be gettin a car soon....
im not thinking about the jerk that much anymore, he passes in and out of my head at times buts its much better then how it use to be... and im really starting to c myself and how pretty i am, im happy about that.....

leaving without saying gd bye is kinda mean but w.e, imma get ova that, and when u come back don't even try to contact me cuz imma disappear or do my best at it...
Its actaully kind of freeing ahhh today today today ... i guess its time to sit and wait again, cuz something always happens, good or bad something always takes place lol smile for me

she slowly makes herself dissipate, and nothing else remains, all thoughts and feelings disappear but she's happy all the same

lost

It sucks being alone, and thats what i am now, alone! i hate break ups, beeing that they also suck.... and when ur left for someone who u know just isn't better.... and when u still love the person who left u, it sucks even more.. idk if im ever goin to get over this, this one thing... i've gotton over soooo much but this one thing has a hold of me, how can i still love him when he doesn't love me? Oh and maybe it hurts more cuz he still tells me he loves me, but how how how can he love me but want her more.... how can he wear her dog tag,? and i know this must sound childish but idc... my heart is in two... and gettin it back together is something i still haven't been able to do... ouch, its like real pain, i feel it everwhere, my skin even hurts from this.... his lie's... 7months and he told so many lies but all i can seem to remember is being happy, when all i want to do is forget him!!!!!

and sometimes i get mad

U IN MY REAR-VIEW,
YUP THATS RIGHT NIGGA I AINT WATCHING U/
U BEING IN FRONT OF ME,
THATS SOMETHING U COULD NEVER DO/
ITS ALL ABOUT U,
THATS FUNNY KID BUT U KNOW U AINT SPEAKING THE TRUTH/
IM DONE WIT U.......
U THINK UR LIFE IS SO SPECIAL/
U THINK UR ALWAYS RIGHT,
WELL IF UR LIFE IS SO NICE
Y U ALL UP IN MINE/
MINDING MY BUSINESS,
WASTING YA TIME.....
GET A NEW HOBBY
STOP WATCHING ME
M.Y.O.B
AND IF U GOT A PROBLEM NIGGA,
Y DON'T U FUCKING COME C ME!!!!!

over and over again

so i sit and wait, for a life time i just sit and wait,
something should be coming soon, something always comes
it might be gd or bad but its on its way, so i sit and wait.